Different walk in spirit

From:Jerry Gorton

Sent:Wednesday, Sep 28, 2016 at 3:58 PM,

To: Jeff Gorton

Cc: iStar-Tariray; Andrew Ramos

Hello everyone, my name is Jerry and I am Jeff's dad.  Andy knows me, but Star, I have not met you. I thought I would drop a line introducing myself to this on line fellowship Jeff thought I may want to participate in.  It seems right, but I do not want to intrude in any way if you are not comfortable adding me.  Feel free to let me know if that is the case. My e-mail address is jojer773@aol.com

I took the liberty of reading the past questions and answers that Jeff forwarded to me but I believe I will reserve any comments for future Q&A's.  In a general way I do want to make a couple of observations regarding what I have read so far. 

It is important that we understand church is not where we go but who we are.  The church is made up of born again believers world wide. Unfortunately many identify with denominations rather than Jesus, and I believe that is a mistake even though there are many true believer in the denominations..  In John 15 verse 1 we read, "I am the true vine, My Father is the vine-dresser. The implication here is there must be a false vine. The true church has a common bond that is greater than any individual differences.  That common bond is Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit, not a denomination or a doctrine, or a statement of faith, but Him.  Our hope, and peace, and strength is derived from being connected to the true vine.  This is done through faith which produces a love for one another.

It is key for believers to understand the difference between explain and reveal.  Paul speaking to the church at  Corinth regarding the things of God makes the following statement in `1st Cor. 2:10, "God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God."  When we read the New Testament we will be hard pressed to find the word "explained".  God does not explain, but reveals Himself and His word.  Then in chapter 2 of 1st Cor. Paul makes the following statement in verse 14, "But the natural man does not receive the things of God; for they are foolishness to him; nor can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned."  If we expect God to speak to us through our natural understanding and human logic we      will become easily frustrated.  John 16:13 records Jesus saying to the disciples, "However, when the Spirit of Truth has come, He will guide you into all truth, for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears, He will speak; and He will tell you things to come."

These are a couple of things I believe that are generally not understood by many who say they are believers.  God delights in revealing Himself to those with a humble and contrite heart, however this is not an academic experience.

Blessings to you all

Jerry

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From: Andrew Ramos

Sent: Wednesday, September 28, 2016 1:35 AM

To: Jerry Gorton

Cc: iStar-Tariray; Jeff Gorton

Subject: Re: (no subject)

Hi Jerry,

You are always welcome and not in away way intruding in this online fellowship. It had cross my mind when this started how awesome it would be to have you in it so I am grateful that Jeff (I have to call him that now to differentiate who's who since they are both "Mr. Gorton") took the liberty to add you. 

Andy

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From: iStar-Tariray

Sent: Wednesday, September 28, 2016 2:01 AM

To: 'Andrew Ramos'; 'Gorton, Jeffrey'

Subject: RE: Intro...Fellowship

Dear Mr. Gorton and Manong,

Magandang Araw to Everyone!

Your message are well received and appreciated. I praised and thank God that it is easily been understood and perceived😊, as I have mentioned to Manong on my text message this morning before heading to Makati. Why is that when Mr Gorton explain it in plain simple words it is so easy to understand, when if Manong explained it to me with too many words it became so hard to understand?

Thank you for explaining and giving more understanding of what a Church is, I can now answer it without hesitation that I am a Christian and that a church is not any denomination but a body of believers in Christ. I agree with you about the institutions/organizations demands credentialing process to obtain title and without undergoing in that credentialing process one cannot be called "evangelist," "pastor" or "teacher" which is set by man and not from the Lord. It got me into thinking that even way back in Jesus time this has been practice already by the teachers of the law. I thank you for answering my 2nd question Sir and I will not make it as an excuse not to attend church, as what the bible says do not forsake fellowshipping ( I understand now in any form weather it is via email, text messages, phone calls and gathering of believers).

And about tithing, I know that this is the most debated issue inside and outside the church. On my previous fellowship with Manong he mentioned that it was not even mentioned in the New Testament, except where it is describing Old Testament practices, or in the Gospels where Jesus is addressing people who were under the Old Testament law. As I go on and read your email and went back on our conversation days ago it helped me realized that New Testament teaching on giving is between me and the Lord, as He always takes into account our circumstances. The important thing is that I or we should see giving as a privileged and not a burden. It should not be out of sense of duty(which I previously do), but rather out of love for the Lord. Let me quote here 2Corinthians 9:6-7 says: “Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.” 

          

Another thing I learned is that, please correct me if I am wrong in this-

That tithing is not the New Testament standard for giving, it is more than any factor, giving reflects the condition of one’s heart. The Bible teaches that God, who richly has supplied us with all good things, wants us “to be generous and ready to share” (1 Tim. 6:18). Tithing is not mentioned as any instructions to the church, although much is said about giving.  Before we came into conversation about tithing it gives an impression to me and to other Christians around me most especially my mom that Tithing is an obligation to GOD as it is given as a law in Old Testament that is why I advised Manong I cannot understand him as he was not able to explained to me fully how tithing should be perceived(My apologies about that Manong). While in New Testament GIVING has been given an emphasize on my willingness, whole heartedly response to God’s grace. Am I correct on this Sir, as this is now I understand how tithing should be understood. My take about tithing before prior on this is that I have to paid/give my due and nothing more is required- it gives me the impression of following without my heart on it and that if I failed to do so I’ll go to hell and it put me into a guilty situation with God, rather than seeing a love relationship between me and the Lord. I now learned that I should give generously as GOD has prospered me, out of love for HIM. I should not think “How much do I have to give?” rather “How much I can give?”  That I should not wait for someone to pressure me with a need, I should look into a need that I can meet.

I thank you Sirs for your patience in answering my questions, indeed this is the day that the Lord has made to opened something in me. Most especially the tithing- it became burden to me of long ago. That I felt so down whenever I was not able to give what has been required of me that left me feel so guilty and it also made me irritated to Christians who do not tithe. I always asked the Lord in prayer that it has been said as well that I cannot give what I don’t have yet here I am trying to fulfill the 10% percent as what has been stated. I failed to give generously to others as I took it their debt to me that they need to pay me back on what I have lend them because I need to give back the full amount of 10% as well. I didn’t realize a brother in need, I didn’t see that those money that I have lent these people should be a blessing and not a debt to be paid. I didn’t know giving until now… since nobody helps me to understand and nobody in here see tithing in the manner that you view it and I do now….

Again Sirs, thank you so much! I felt so much joy in me right now. You guys are a blessings to me…  

Cheers!

Star

 

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Instagram Featured Photos

Sharing thing momentous moment when Instagram Tuklas Pinas Itim At Puti featured my photos in their page.

Indeed, gives me motivation to snapped more pictures and shared it to the world.

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Spices

From: Jeff Gorton

Date: Sat, Sep 24, 2016, at 8:28 AM

Subject: Re: Intro...Fellowship

To: Andrew Ramos, iStar-Tariray

Good Morning!  It is sunny 39 degrees in Gardnerville, Nevada.  I awake with joy this morning.  Cannot say exactly why, but I am excited for the day.  Thank you, Lord!

"Manong Andy" -- Star (or would you rather I called you Ezsie?) you used the term Manong Andy a couple times in your email.  I googled Manong and am assuming you use it the same way I would use the term "brother" as in Brother Andy -- is that correct?  I just want to make sure I understand what that is.

When I read your email, Star, a scripture came back to me that I quoted to Andy a few days ago when we were discussing you and your passion for Christ right now.  It is Psalm 42:1 and it says, "As the deer pants for the water brooks, so my soul pants for You, O God."  I know you know English, but I want to make sure you understand the context in which the word "pant" falls.  It is to breathe with short, quick breaths typically caused by exertion or excitement.  You know, like we do after we run a mile or sprint a couple hundred yards.  The picture I get in my head is that the deer in Psalm 42:1 is tired, exhausted, and very thirsty - even parched and the single, most prominent focus is to seek hard after water which will quench that thirst.  The Hebrew word in that verse is BXR and it means, "to long after, pant after."  You've longed after something or someone before, right?  You've yearned for someone or something before, right?  It can border on desperation.  It consumes your thoughts and affects everything you do because you cannot get it off your mind and heart.  

"Why," you ask, am I going off on this tangent over a simple scripture.  Two reasons, Star, and both pertain to your email.  First of all, I am convicted by your passion, your longing, your yearning for a stronger relationship with God The Father, Jesus Christ, The Holy Spirit, The Trinity - ONE.  A double portion.  I hear it about you when Andy talks with me and I read it in your email.  Ask and you shall receive, Star.  We should all use you as an example of one who seeks hard after HIM.  Secondly, Star, as you see above, The Holy Spirit will open The Word of God to you in ways you've never known if you continue to seek Him as you are.  The revelation He gave me from Psalm 42:1 this morning is not only for you, but an example of how He wishes me to be as well.  You are a shining example to us, Star.

A shining example, hmmmm - "stars" shine, are radiant.  Yes, Ezsie, if you don't mind, I believe I will continue to call you Star.

In closing, I will leave you with the song that is on my heart this morning.  It is "As The Deer" and is derived from Psalms 42:1.  Google it and listen to it.  Here are the lyrics:

You alone are my strength, my shield

To You alone may my spirit yield

You alone are my heart's desire

And I long to worship Thee

As the deer panteth for the water

So my soul longeth after Thee

You alone are my heart's desire

And I long to worship Thee

You're my friend

And You are my brother

Even though You are a King

I love You more than any other

So much more than anything

I want You more than gold or silver

Only You can satisfy

You alone are the real joy giver

And the apple of my eye

-----Original Message-----

From: Andrew Ramos

To: iStar-Tariray

Cc: Jeff Gorton

Sent: Fri, Sep 23, 2016 6:23 pm

Subject: Re: Intro...Fellowship

Hahaha! “Black pepper” huh? Only could from the Lord himself because as I pondered on that little black seed He started to reveal something--we know that it can be used as a whole, ground or powder, and aroma and flavor it brings, I thought of how it’s being dried up in that hot desert sun, stored in the cold dark freezer and grinded at the time of use—He showed in that little life and process of that pepper my life, my walk and calling in Him. I can’t even say when or how long I’ve been in this “desert” nor the duration of being preserved in this ‘freezer’ (and it is not my concern and matter), and as it has pleased Him taken me out and ‘grinded’ me to bring forth an aroma and flavor to those in need. The pepper contains properties that make people sweat and also wake you up or your mind, likewise with the calling He has given.

Art Katz once said that when the Lord sent him out the function in the calling he was called to, but in the body, he was connected to or had daily fellowship with he was just another brother in the Lord so also it has been with Mr. Gorton’s family and me. This doesn’t mean we didn’t function or see it from the perspective of our callings during those times, but through the working of the Holy Spirit has made us ‘together’ like the in Antioch (Acts 13) being ‘one body and one Spirit, just as you were called in one hope of your calling;  one Lord, one faith, one baptism;  one God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.’  Thus, I believe it is this way with this fellowship.

This is what comes to mind this morning.

Andy

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​From: iStar-Tariray

Date: Sun, Sep 25, 2016 at 4:24 AM

Subject: Re: Intro...Fellowship

To: Jeff Gorton

Cc: Andrew Ramos

Dear Mr. Gorton,

I hope my email finds you well.

I was deeply moved in spirit and indeed very happy. As I read your email I am crying, and I felt an unexplainable joy inside my heart, Sir. My apologies if I haven't responded the soonest as personal emails have been blocked in my workplace and I do not receive personal emails frequently from friends only from Manong Andy. From now on, I have something to look forward to in my inbox everyday😊😊.

For the word Manong, you are a correct sir English translation for that is a Brother or older brother in Ilocano dialect. About my name Star, it is my childhood nickname given to me by my biological father as he promised to give the heavenly bodies to my mother way back then. It's so funny that we have twinkle, moonjay, sunshine, star, apple, precious and boyc in the family. Only a few people knew me in that name, yes Sir please call me Star. My real name is Ezra Diadem, for so long Ezra has been mispronounced and prompted me not to use it.

Sir, I appreciate you taking the time in writing me this email and indeed I treasured every word was so true enveloped in it. I will continuously pray and asked the Holy Spirit to open my heart to see the spiritual understanding as I am too shallow to understand and perceive the true heavenly meanings of HIS words. There are times I felt everything has been hidden from me like there is something blocking my understanding to comprehend what Manong Andy is telling me. It got me so frustrated and envy Manong a lot about knowing the Lord. As I asked him from our previous fellowship I wanted to have a double portion of his anointing like what Elisha asked Elijah before he was taken up to heaven by chariots of fire. You guys see the Lord differently as I see and I wanted to have that gift. Manong kept on telling me that the world will persecute me and I believe I am ready for that.

I was actually wondering why Manong included me in this email as I only wanted a fellowship where I could learn like a student from a teacher. Like he will give me articles to read and let me share how I understand it then he will give his thoughts and understanding on it. Like what he got from his fellowship with you. Perhaps, he already gets tired of answering all my questions to him and made him up all night as I kept pestering him and won't stop until I get satisfied with the answer😊😊. I always prayed for Manong won't get tired of me and to have millions of patience to deal with me to the Lord. I felt different frustrations if my questions were not answered and it consumes me the entire day. I prayed for fellowship Sir, and the Lord answered me more than I asked for.

I am crying while singing the song you left for me. I have known this song since when I was starting in knowing HIM however this time it is different...

God bless you and your household even more Sir. I can't explain the excitement I have right now😊😊😊.

Star🌟

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Intro - Fellowship

From: Andrew Ramos

Date: Fri, Sep 23, 2016 at 1:35 AM

Subject: Intro...Fellowship

To: Jeff Gorton; iStar-Tariray

Hi Guys,

Well this is an odd way of introducing you two, but I know it's beneficial. So with that said Star I will respond to your texts now in this email. If you're wondering if Mr. Gorton know what you texted this morning? Yes, he does. In fact, we were corresponding through viber when your texts came in.

You need not to be sorry for being open and putting forth how you feel. I appreciate your honesty and willing to put forth what you feel. I, on the other hand, am not sorry for obeying the Lord which you already know. 

You had mentioned that I had Mr. Gorton and Gene (his bro-in-law whom I call Dad) and Jeanne (Mom), namely the whole Gorton family, who I had to guide me and feed me when I was new in the faith. I'm sure, Mr. Gorton can probably validate this, that he was only able to share whatever that may be at any time as he was being led to. There have been instances in the past where Mr. Gorton could not go there with me or share things dear to his heart as much as he wanted to. In fact, Mr. Gorton in all the 20 years we've know each other, NOT ONCE HAS HE INITIATED AN EMAIL OR OR JUST OUT OF THE BLUE SAYING 'HEY ANDY, LOOK AT WHAT THE LORD IS DOING IN MY LIFE!' hahahah (Yes, I specifically put that in all CAPS so you don't miss it Mr. Gorton) 

I will affirm your statement of my greed. I am greedy in the Lord. My greed to wanting to only share this precious things to whom He allows me to share it with at His choosing of time and place so I guard that jealously. 

So let's move on. I'm will give you guys the floor. Whatever you guys may have to say go for it. 

Love you guys,

Andy

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From: Gorton, Jeffrey

Date: Fri, Sep 23, 2016 at 9:42 AM

Subject: RE: Intro...Fellowship

To: widopenspaces, somar79126, iStar-Tariray

Good Morning Star!

                        “Mr. Gorton” here, but I want you to call me Jeff, please.  You, on the other hand, My Brother, can continue with Mr. Gorton or Sir because I don’t want anyone to think I’m close with some duck egg eating, fish noodle sucking foreigner with tattoos.  People already think I keep some pretty shady company . . .  J  You should consider yourself lucky, Bro, to keep such company as this 6’5’ 275 pound meat and potatoes eating, redneck!  I might be related to the guy from Gorton’s Fish Sticks, but I certainly don’t claim him as family.  I am a proud fly fisherman who releases every fish I catch, that Gorton’s Fish Sticks dude, on the other hand, keeps everything.

Yes, Star, by choosing to associate with Andy and I, you have chosen to interact with the unloved and unlovely.  But you know what, Romans 9:25 says, “As He says also in Hosea:  I will call them My people, who were not My people, And her beloved, who was not beloved.” We have been instructed to pray for the unloved and unlovely so maybe that’s why the Lord lead you here.  Whatever the reason, Star, I rejoice in my spirit to have you a part of our this interaction we call fellowship. 

There is nothing here that remotely resembles structure.  Andy and I are as family as me and my brother, Joe are.  We discuss everything because life happens.  We share in each other’s joys and sorrows and stand with each other through everything, trying as best we can, to walk in Christ in the shadow of His cross.  This isn’t religion, this simply “is.”  Nothing is off limits.  We don’t reach for something to say.  If we have nothing we say nothing.  We don’t always agree.  We don’t all have the same function – yet, we are all a part of the whole. 

It’s funny, I was sharing a recipe to a friend of mine this morning.   The recipe called for tomatoes, mozzarella cheese, salt, pepper, olive oil, balsamic vinegar and fresh basil.  She too is a Christian and I said to her, “You know what, Kerry, when I sat down to write this out for you all I intended to do was share a recipe.  When I finished writing it out, though, the Holy Spirit began dealing with me.  There were some parts of this recipe I could consume on their own, specifically the tomatoes and the cheese.  The rest, however, the vinegar, oil, salt, pepper and basil – none of those are really great in any quantity on their own even though they all serve a very necessary purpose.  I don’t know everything I am supposed to be getting out of all this but I do know one thing for sure, as a whole, the recipe is incomplete without them.”

Anyway, Star, The Lord showed me a picture of the Body of Christ, his Bride, in the side dish I prepared for my wife and I last night.  Andy says I never. . . no wait, I won’t paraphrase here, let me quote my kind, compassionate brother-in-Christ, “NOT ONCE HAS HE INITIATED AN EMAIL OR JUST OUT OF THE BLUE SAYING 'HEY ANDY, LOOK AT WHAT THE LORD IS DOING IN MY LIFE!”  Well, I want you to know, Star, the first time I ever wrote to you, I just did . . .

I suppose what I am saying in my longwinded way of doing so is that I’m not sure who’s who here for sure other than Andy is definitely the “pepper” but we all have our places in the body and the three of us, whatever our function at this moment in time, are coming together as a part of THE WHOLE.  Thank you Jesus that I am privileged to be a part of that group, an heir because of your willingness to die for my sins!!!

In closing, Ephesians 4 comes to mind.  So cool that countries apart, we three are a part of  “one body and one Spirit, just as you were called in one hope of your calling;  one Lord, one faith, one baptism;  one God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.”

Welcome aboard, My Dear.  Please feel free to share, comment or question as you feel led.  It is a blessing to meet you!  I’ve never seen you, spoken with you or met you, but I feel a kindred spirit and that can only be Jesus Christ and regardless whether we agree, disagree or are indifferent, HE will always be that common bond greater than all our differences.

Jeff

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From: Istar-Tariray

Date: Fri, Sep 23, 2016 at 10:04 AM

Subject: Re: Intro...Fellowship

To: Andrew Ramos

Cc: Jeff Gorton

Dear Sirs,

I do not know where to start. I have been up all night and indeed do not know what to say upon reading this email. I feel so ashamed and so small on how I acted the other day about wanting to hear more of the sharing and felt so bad about the hesitation that I felt. My apologies for that, I am deeply humbled that I am included in this email.  In fact, I only prayed for a constant fellowship with the Lord that I could learned and know HIM deeply. I mentioned that I envied Andy so much that the LORD spoke to him so easy and why can’t I have that? It made me so frustrated that Manong Andy would not share what he have and that made me say that indeed he is too greedy to share the good news. And now I understand that it is the Lord’s leading for him to abide not of the flesh. Just only last night I was praying why I have this eagerness and desire of knowing HIM more and more every day? Surely I read the bible cover to cover more than once yet still do not have the full grasp of Spiritual understanding that Andy does. Sir, I do not know who Art Katz is, neither Derek Prince because nobody shared to me about it. I do not know how God designed marriage and HIS original intention about marriage and all that stuff. I do not know all of this since my knowledge is very limited when it comes about Spiritual understanding of HIS word. I asked the Lord to give Manong Andy patience in me as I frequent him if he have something for me to read and to learned from. And I am so thankful every day for the fellowship yet still desiring for more. I stopped attending bible study and our local church where I grew up as I felt that my spiritual health needed something else.

I will stopped right here because I don’t know what else to say Sir. I praise GOD for people like you whom HE uses to awaken me in my spiritual slumber- to rip open my carefully crafted excuses and stuns me back to life and reality about the Lord.

Ezsie

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Forgiveness

When someone does something to you that is unforgiveable,

There's only one thing to do, Forgive them.

We need to exit any interaction that is toxic, not just

Physically but mentally and emotionally too.

That means we don’t volunteer to carry around hate.

Wishing someone ill, hoping that they get what's coming to them, wanting them to suffer because of what they did, we think that thinking this way, makes us feel better and lighter, but it makes us feel worse and heavier, weigh down by the bitterness in our hearts.

We think we are making the other person suffer by not forgiving them, that they will bad all the way to their grave but it is not possible to impose conscience onto a person.

When we don't forgive, it just means that we are the only one who still cares. Forgiveness is the key to truly ending our own suffering.

If you already suffered once because of someone else's actions, not forgiving them is suffering twice or a million times. Because even if we don't see the person anymore, even if time has passed, you'll still feel the pain, every time you think of the person or the incident.

When someone has wronged you, think of how much they must be suffering to say these things, to do these things, only someone truly unhappy would be like that to another human being. Every hurt that inflict, every temper they throw, every abuse they mete out, it's because of their own inability to be happy.

Now the best thing for us to do, is not to be like them, is to live a happy life. Maybe they've left physical scars, but don't allow them to leave emotional scars too.

Forgiveness is hard, but only if we think of it as a sacrifice to our pride, or justice. Forgiveness is simply letting go. We forgive to let go. Letting go is never for the person who has wronged us, it is for ourselves. Letting go of hate is the best gift we can ever give ourselves.

You already suffered, now don't continue to suffer.

Forgive let go, and allow yourself to move forward in life and to be happy, always.

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#3rdParty,

#hugot,

#hugot101,

#hugotlines,

#hugotpa,

#hugotpamore,

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#hugotpinoy,

#AngSadNoh,

#SadLife,

#TruthSlap,

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L.O.V.E

"When Love Arrives" is a poem and spoken word piece written and performed by Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye. This powerful and heartfelt collaboration explores the beautiful and often unpredictable nature of love in its various forms.

The poem emphasizes the idea that love arrives unexpectedly, catching us off guard and sometimes challenging our expectations. It delves into the different stages and experiences of love, from childhood friendships to romantic relationships and everything in between.

Throughout the poem, Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye use vivid imagery and expressive language to paint a picture of love's complexities. They touch on both the joyous and painful aspects of love, acknowledging that it isn't always easy but remains a vital force in our lives.

"When Love Arrives" also celebrates the diversity of love, highlighting how it manifests differently for each person. The poem explores the impact love has on our personal growth, how it shapes our perspectives, and how it can bring a sense of belonging and connection.

Overall, "When Love Arrives" is a beautiful exploration of the profound and transformative power of love. It reminds us to be open-minded, patient, and understanding as we navigate the ever-evolving journey of love in our lives.

I saw the YouTube of Sarah and Phil's poem "When Love Arrives" the other day and indeed it is so lovely-the lines, the essence, and how they deliver the said poem.

So let me share the said poem with all of you...

"When Love Arrives"
Sarah Kay & Phil Kaye 

I knew exactly what love looked like…
In seventh grade

Even though I hadn’t met love yet
If love had wandered into my homeroom
I would have recognized him at first glance
Love wore a hemp necklace

I would have recognized her at first glance
Love wore a tight French braid

Love played acoustic guitar
And knew all my favorite Beatles songs
Love wasn’t afraid to ride the bus with me
And I knew
I just must be checking the wrong classroom

Just must be searching the wrong hallways
She was there, I was sure of it

If only I could find him
But when love finally showed up

She had a bowl cut
He wore the same clothes every day for a week

Love hated the bus
Love didn’t know anything about the Beatles

Instead
Every time I tried to kiss love
Our teeth got in the way

Love became the reason I lied to my parents
“I’m going to… Ben’s house”

Love had a terrible rhythm on the dance floor
But made sure we never missed a slow song

Love waited by the phone because she knew if her father picked up it would be

“Hello ?” (*Heavy breathing*)
“Hello ?” (*Heavy breathing*)
“I guess they hung up”

And love grew

Love … Stretched like a trampoline

Love changed

Love disappeared… slowly
Like baby teeth, losing parts of me I thought I needed

Love vanished like an amateur magician
Everyone could see the trapdoor but me

Like a flat tire
There were other places I had planned on going

But my plans didn’t matter

Love stayed away for years
And when love finally reappeared, I barely recognized him
Love smelled different now, had darker eyes
A broader back
Love came with freckles I didn’t recognize
New birthmarks, a softer voice
Now there were new sleeping patterns
New favorite books
Love had songs that reminded him of someone else
Songs love didn’t like to listen to

So did I…

But we found a park bench that fit us perfectly
We found jokes that make us laugh
And now love makes me fresh homemade chocolate chip cookies
But love will probably finish most of them for a midnight snack

Loves looks great in lingerie but still likes to wear her retainer
Love is a terrible driver, but a great navigator
Love knows where she’s going
It just might take her two hours longer than she planned

Love is messier now
Not as simple

Love uses the word “boobs” in front of my parents
Love chews too loudly
Love leaves the cap off the toothpaste
Love uses smiley faces in her text messages
And turns out

Love shits!

But love also cries
And love will tell you, “You are beautiful”

And mean it

Over and over again (“You are beautiful”)
When you first wake up- (“You are beautiful”)
When you’ve just been crying- (“You are beautiful”)
When you don’t wanna hear it- (“You are beautiful”)
When you don’t believe it- (“You are beautiful”)
When nobody else will tell you, (“You are beautiful”)
Love still thinks… (“…”)

You are beautiful

But love is not perfect and will sometimes forget
When you need to hear it most

You are beautiful

Do not forget this

Love is not who you were expecting
Love is not what you can predict

Maybe love is in New York City already asleep
You are in California, India, Australia, wide awake
Maybe love is always in the wrong timezone

Maybe love is not ready for you
Maybe you are not ready for love

Maybe love just isn’t the marrying type

Maybe the next time you see love is twenty years after the divorce
Love looks older now, but just as beautiful as you remember

Maybe love is only there for one month
Maybe love is there for every firework, every birthday party, every hospital visit
Maybe love stays
Maybe love can’t
Maybe love shouldn’t…

Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to
And love leaves exactly when love must
When love arrives say,
“Welcome, make yourself comfortable”

If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her
Turn off the music, listen to the quiet
Whisper,
“Thank you for stopping by”

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Hugot sa Tag-Lamig

Winter Wonderland sa Puso ko...

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Who said that I am on a Diet??

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